I can't explain fully how much I truly loathe my job.
I work in customer service and I cannot fully explain how incredibly dishearting it is. I speak to people all over America everyday and all this job has taught me is that I really can't stand my fellow citizens. 97 precent of the people I have to speak to are deeply horrible, stupid and entitled people. I cannot understand why they behave as they do and why the feel the need to yell, harass and belittle as they do. The other 3 percent ranges from okay to completely wonderful, but they aren't enough to make me feel like my job is any less soul sucking than it is.
I just spent the last 2 or so hours crying my eyes out. I'm not, habitually, a crier.
I'm losing my grip on myself and my life. I'm nowhere near what I wanted to be. I have a degree I'm not using. I'm working on a Master's degree that I can't work on this year because my employer won't give me the time. I'm drowning and unhappy and the only thing that keeps me vaguely afloat is my little brother.